Today, as I hugged my sweet husband goodbye, and he held me in his arms and promised to see my later tonight, I felt overwhelmed with such a sense of contentment and joy.
After he left, I went back to getting myself ready for work.
And as I did I began to reflect on my life and how I had arrived here, at this moment, married to such a kind and loving man.
Living a life where I finally feel safe, loved and protected in so many beautiful ways.
Those of you who know me, and have been in my life for any part of the past 25 years, can attest to the fact that my life has been a series of bad decisions that have led to some pretty painful consequences.
So it is especially profound for me to be where I am in life right now.
I want to bear witness to all of you that “I”, Melanie, did not get myself to this place in life.
As I sat and reflected on my life this morning, I realized this beautiful truth…
The only thing I did that I can take credit for was surrendering my life and my future to the Lord.
The truth of that statement cannot be understated either.
My decision to surrender my life to his will for me was the ONE decision I have made over the past 25 years that was finally a good one!
The plans He had for me were far more beautiful than I could have ever created or imagined by myself…
That is how I KNOW that I am where I am because of the Lord, and not because of anything I did myself.
So imagine how strongly I FELT the words of this song that started playing on the radio as I drove to work today…
I felt like the Lord was speaking directly to my heart through this song.
It was “Through ALL of It” by Colton Dixon
Here is a link to the song on Youtube.
Stop reading right now and listen to this powerful song.
How many of you could relate to that song?
As I look back over my life I can see so clearly all the times that I was being held up and supported by the Lord.
I can see all the times when I honestly believed he had abandoned me because I was losing everything that I thought I needed to be happy.
Then, how those things I thought I needed were replaced with things HE KNEW I needed, but couldn’t give me while I was still holding so tightly to those people and things that were actually destroying any chance of happiness I may have had.
25 years ago, I graduated from High School. I set out on my journey in the world FULL of hopes and dreams.
Very few of those dreams I had back then were ever realized.
Does that make me sad?
But mostly, I feel such reverence for the miraculous ways the Lord took my bad decisions and used them for my growth. He so perfectly turned my mistakes into miracles and helped me create a beautiful life that I really love.
A life that is so deeply satisfying that it defies description.
I know that I will still make mistakes along the way.
I know that there will be times of such deep sorrow that I won’t know if I can carry on for one more day…
But I also KNOW that through it all, He will be right there beside me, helping me and guiding me to the life that He designed for me to live.
By learning to surrender the future to Him, I have discovered the secret to a life of freedom and bliss.
One of my favorite parts of the Bible to read is the book of Romans.
I have been humbled and transformed by the message Paul teaches in this book. This scripture in particular seem very relevant to me today.
1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
I would be so honored if you would share your own story of surrender with me.
By sharing our testimonies, we uplift and bless each other.
It is my deepest hope and prayer that this blog is a blessing to those who read and support me. I know that you are all a blessing to me. I have met and become friends with some pretty amazing people on Word Press.
Today, I want to thank you for your kindness and support.
God Bless you all.
I want to end today with one of my favorite Dr. Seuss quotes.